6/21/2006

I have the photo album spread out on the bedroom floor

Urghhhhhh, vocal concert D:
Wednesday, next. I didn't realise it was so near until..just. Hehh. Horrible horrible rehearsals on Monday and I realised I'm just not ready for it. I mean, it's been so long since I've done a performance of any kind. I don't believe I actually thought I could do it. The last time I did something, I was 12 and I had the confidence, pride and ego that could fill an elephant..if they were solid things. Not to mention the fact that it's been ages since I've done anything like singing. Properly I mean. Urghhh. I absolutely canNOT do the song outside of the lesson. I mean, in the lesson, I'm alright really. I'm sure that I can manage. But the moment I'm outside, I know I can't. I can't sing in front of 1 person, how am I meant to do it in front of an entire audience of strangers right. Hurr. Damn it. I've gone completely past the "scared" stage and now I'm standing at "terrified", looking back and wishing I was just afraid. Urghhhhhh. That song simply eludes me. I don't doubt that others will as well. My confidence has never been the same since I came here, I wonder how I thought I could take this one on.

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HAHA ohya, I'm beginning to get (almost) hooked on soccer. World Cup, too good :D <3 the team work and all that. Anyway yes. COME ON ENGLAND :D

Excerpt from the musical, so many years ago. (HAHA I sound like an old woman, aiya whatever la.)

Once upon a mountain top
They stood and dreamed of what could be
But all that faded with reality
Still the story's not all told
As the days and months unfold
Perhaps someday they'll realise
There's more to life than meets the eye

:D
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